14/05/2020

I can't sleep now. It's 15th 3 AM. I slept at 10ish, woke up at 2ish. Now I can't fucking sleep.

So I guess I should write this down. Better not break a good habit, right? So what did I do today? or yesterday. I'm just gonna call it today. Woke up late again. I know I promised to wake up early, but that didn't happen. Started on some study. Not so motivated, you know that feeling when you feel underprepared for something and you just can't sleep because you want to learn and learn all night and day. Yep I have been having this feeling lately.

I get this sort of feeling every now n then, and for most times I just need to keep my calm and keep working hard and believe in yourself and believe that I can do it, and eventually it gets done. But the fear of breaking down and just giving up is so high. I mean I'm frightened of giving up, so I make myself believe that let's not get ahead of ourselves and think what you have to do in the present.

Be Present. Two words enough to keep you going.

Today was very similar to yesterday. Got my complete project details, I printed out the details, stuck it up on the wall in front of me. I watch some part of a movie whenever I have food with mum. Right now, we have Aladin, at 24:05, I know this because it's on a sticky note in front of me. So the next time we eat, I'll play that from the same timestamp. That's about it. I guess, Good Morning Papa.